you trace your fingers over
the tender grooves on my skin
and tell me to dust them with glitter
or call them tiger stripes
elegant wounds from battles
lost and won
but i wish you would stop
before telling me that my scars
and my stretch marks
are beautiful and strong
i wish you would realize
that your words hurt more
than looking in the mirror
these days
and i wish more than anything
that you would realize that
these things you put on a pedestal
of honor are a natural part of my flesh
just as much a part of me
as my blistered knuckles
and my upturned nose and my
sky high cheekbones
and i don’t need every bone
and freckle on my skin to be beautiful
for me to be worth something to you
because beauty is overrated in the
most painful way and i wish on
every shooting star that calling everything
beautiful wasn’t the remedy for
our intimate, whispered knowledge
that not everything holds beauty
but not everything has to because being
‘pretty’ isn’t the only thing that
should make me valuable
so call the bumps
and craters on my skin
artistic and lovely
all you would like
but just know that
i won’t listen or care
because being appealing
to the oily bony hands and
hungry eyes of those
who are blind to
everything but allure
and celebrating my body’s
connate reaction to growth
doesn’t make me charming or brave
it just makes me human
can’t that be enough for you?
ABOUT THE AUTHOR:
Jillian is a 15-year-old high school student who writes poetry about identity, mental health, and space. They have been writing poetry since the beginning of 2021 and in addition to poetry, they enjoy biology. In their free time they do speech and debate, track, and color guard.